No more trying

   Hello once again to blog world. I am pretty sure I have at least 4 of these floating out in cyber world. I always attempt one only to state "here i go-trying again" or "hope this isn't one of two posts for the year" To no surprise, one I found had-you guessed it-2 entries!

   Life as I last left it on here has changed drastically. Obvious changes:

1) Family has expanded. Where Shaun & I once thought we'd be that only child family due to pregnancy problems of the past-we now boast a house full of kids! Ok-3 total-but being outnumbered at this point it always sounds & looks like a zoo in my home. I cherish Michelle Duggar & her HUGE family (more on that for another post) but I am feeling pretty good with 3 because even while writing this blog I have put one down for a nap, made a snack of various foods for another & fed, changed, walked, cuddled, held, etc the other. Needless to say these few sentences have taken about an hour! However, I am forever thankful to my Lord for these demanding-uh-I mean precious kiddos. In all seriousness-I cherish my zoo!

2) Job-this one is quite a change to say the least. One blog alone cannot hold all that is the story to our current calling-church planting. It is fun, exciting, terrifying, challenging, adventurous, thrilling, confusing and freeing all wrapped into one big journey I can't begin to explain. Although it is filled with unknowns, I wouldn't change where we are for the world. Again, many more blogs to come!

3) Me-yes I know we all change, Whitney, duh! Well this is a current broken yet peaceful process right now. The Lord has captured my heart in a way unexplainable with words. He has shown me through so many avenues, changes, people and Scripture the FREEDOM that truly is Christ. He is my prize-and all that I am after. I am done with behavior modification, legalistic thinking and glorified country club gatherings we call Bible studies and worship. I am done with my fake smiles, plastered outward appearance and am ready to be free, broken, wounded, joyful and whatever else for all to see to the glory of Him. And while yes other things have changed about me-ahem-clothing size, few gray hairs and stretch marks-I am content (okay okay I am working on it) but I am learning contentment in Him not the temporary.

   SO-here we go-no trying to make a blog work. No trying to be a better person (learning that's impossible) and no trying to live up to expectations impossible to attain. Welcome to my new found friend-the blog-a place to put my thoughts-jumbled and all-and for others to see. Join me as I learn not WHO am I but WHOSE am I. I am_______ fill in the blank and I no longer care about that. But I BELONG to HIM and that I most certainly DO care about. Til the next one....